Everything feels so different. Everything has changed. I lived to love you . I even lived to serve you. Most people will cringe at this- not understanding what this means. After all, he was a dog and I was his master, right? Well Yes, and No. I became his master in order to show him how to trust the world again because it had been so cruel to him. But once this shift occurred and all was stable and serene in his mind- He became my Beloved and I was here to serve him.
What does this mean? Imagine, an angel coming to earth to bestow the biggest blessings on you- where your heart is so filled with love and peace that you feel indestructible. When I was next to Benjamin- every fibre in my being glowed with an immense light and love. I most vibrantly alive when caring for him. Time stood still when I laid with him. Each pour in my body was filled with limitless love when I fed him, watered him, cleaned him, massaged him, sang to him, played with him.
You see, I was serving the Beloved. Just as someone sat with Buddha and perhaps soaked his feet or wiped his brow. Each small act of care made me touch God. God, Source, Limitless Love- call it what you want. Benjamin brought me to this place of Infinite Unchanging Love, never born and never to die.
How can I even explain it to you here? Words are so limiting. Benjamin, my Beloved. My teacher. My Son. Thank you for showing me God.
