I am inching forward to being “okay” with where Benjamin and I are at right now. I still have my kicking and screaming days- just yesterday- I threw a mini tantrum on a walk with my girls- just yelling “life is NOT fair”. I really let Life have it- a few good cuss words and a few loud screams got me to a place of peace for a little while. sometimes the way to peace is through a good scream!
Benjamin is doing much better than I am. Sure, he is a little confused why we turn around after our 5 minute walk. Sure, he is looking at me with a “why” look when I leave with the girls and not him on our evening walks. But allin all- what he is missing in walks, he is getting tenfold in love, brushing, kong treats, doggy massage, acupressure and good conversation! This restricted exercise will last minimum 8 weeks ( we are in week 3) and I actually think I may survive it without too many more tantrums. Once again, I am learning acceptance from the master- Benjamin. Right at this moment- while I am thinking how I wish he could come with me and the girls, he is busy chewing his pig hoof stuffed with Tripe, not a care in the world, filled up with love and bliss. That’s my boy.