Benjamin keeps communicating to me daily. His mastery is just as strong in his passing. I asked him why he had to leave now, why now? This is what he said:
“You got to experience Vast Infinite Love with me through our physical connection. Many people never experience this in their lifetime. I came to you to give you direct experience the bliss that is this Love. This Love knows no boundaries, has no labels, has no doubts, grows infinitely and never judges. This is Source experienced in the body here and now. I left at this time because I knew you were ready to evolve to the next phase in your evolving. In fact, if I stayed- you would not move on. You were so content with our Love that you stopped moving toward Self Love and Love of others in its most Pure state ( that we shared). I left because I know it is your time to continue this journey of Love. I am here always with you, watching you, and sending you many messages to help you open to this Love of self and others. You will find me in the Silence of the Heart. Sit with me as often as you can. Come to our room,sit on my bed, and I will be there to sit in Love with you. Ask me anything and in the Silence- the Truth will awaken in you.
There is a direct way for you to grow in this path of Self Love. I am asking you to be your own trainer as you were with me. You trained me and became my leader- from a place of total determination, openness and steadfast devotion. I ask you to do the same for your precious heart. You trained the aggression and anxiety out of me. You never gave up on me. You were my mother, leader, and best friend even when others said I was a lost cause. I ask you to have the same devotion to your own violent mind. Your mind is separating you from Source. Your mind is telling you things that are not true. Your mind is scared and aggressive- approach it just as you did me when I was so violent- with Loving Kindness yet Assertive Presence- this presence can lead the mind out of darkness.
Question your mind. Don’t believe the stressful painful thoughts. Question them until you see the other side. Find the crack in the thoughts. This is where the light comes in. This is where the Heart is resting. Underneath the harried mind is the Limitless Love that you and I know together. This Love is waiting for you to know itself now through YOU, as well as through me. ”
My boy is here, closer than close- giving me the signal of the next chapter of my evolving. This is what Masters do- never stop teaching- from a place of pure love and connectedness. Thank you Benjamin. I love you. and may I begin to find that Love for self and others.