{"id":490,"date":"2014-04-18T05:35:40","date_gmt":"2014-04-18T05:35:40","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/causeandeffectdogtraining.com\/blog\/?p=490"},"modified":"2014-04-19T18:23:35","modified_gmt":"2014-04-19T18:23:35","slug":"our-last-day-and-the-divine-gift-she-gave-me","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/causeandeffectdogtraining.com\/blog\/2014\/04\/18\/our-last-day-and-the-divine-gift-she-gave-me\/","title":{"rendered":"Our Last day and the Divine Gift she gave me"},"content":{"rendered":"

I have been reflecting on our last day together.\u00a0\u00a0 Whatever words I find here to share will be wholly inadequate.\u00a0 I have been looking for God most of my life. I have been praying, screaming at, and begging for God to appear to me.\u00a0 I don’t mean the God image of an old bearded man who rules over the universe.\u00a0 I let go of that image eons ago.\u00a0 I mean God – Source Energy that is All Love .<\/p>\n

Lucille brought me to God our last day together.\u00a0\u00a0 I woke up and layed with her. I had no idea I would decide to put her down that day. I was very\u00a0 concerned about her painful front leg limp\u00a0 yet I was not thinking of letting her go.\u00a0\u00a0 We began our morning walk-\u00a0 She was in her wheel chair.\u00a0 She was struggling so much. I was crying as we attempted to move down my street. My other dogs patiently walked beside us.\u00a0\u00a0 After less than a hundred yards,\u00a0 the clearest voice inside me said to put her gently into the wagon.<\/p>\n

The rest of our day was mostly held in the deepest silence.\u00a0 I have a busy mind, often with anxious stressful thoughts and this day-\u00a0 they disappeared. I had no doubts, I had no fears, I had no scary images to block out.\u00a0\u00a0 I was in communion with my beloved Lucille through silence and love.<\/p>\n

Why did this massive shift in my regular way of being happen?\u00a0\u00a0 How could it possibly happen on the day I would be saying goodbye to her?\u00a0 Why was I not rattled and stressed ?\u00a0\u00a0 That would the normal way I would handle such a devastating reality.\u00a0 I now see Lucille’s divine plan and gift to me as clear as day.\u00a0\u00a0 Her soul was preparing to leave her body\u00a0 and I believe she wanted to share something so profound and sacred to me before she left my side.\u00a0 She wanted to give me a glimpse into God.<\/p>\n

That day, I was bathed in the deepest Peace.\u00a0 I had hours to be with her , knowing it was our last hours together- there was not a moment of fear or stress.\u00a0 Instead, there was the deepest of connection and understanding with her.\u00a0 When I laid next to her in our living room-\u00a0 I felt an indescribable Wholeness.\u00a0 I believe Lucille’s soul opened the portal into Source\/God in these last hours together.\u00a0 She gave me the gift of direct experience into the Divine.\u00a0 It’s almost like I died for a moment, crossed over to feel God’s unwavering Love and then came back to my mind and body.<\/p>\n

It’s been one month since her passing, and I am\u00a0 wrapped in grief.\u00a0\u00a0 I am allowing all of it. I am not running or shutting down from the immensity of these feelings.\u00a0 It just is.<\/p>\n

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I do not need to be any other way than the way I am right now. and amidst all this vulnerability and fragility- I am able to recall our last day quite clearly.\u00a0\u00a0 The day when our Souls celebrated our infinite unending Love.\u00a0\u00a0 I am blessed beyond words that my Lucille revealed the Light of God in me.<\/p>\n

I think Lucille also wants me to understand that this unwavering Silence and Love can be reached at any time- that I can reconnect with her , with God, with All That Is- by simply stopping fully\u00a0 and asking with an open heart- to see with awakened eyes.\u00a0 I plan on connecting with my beloveds often now.\u00a0 To have touched the beauty of that space makes me yearn for it.\u00a0 It’s here for me, for all of us- simply sit and rest in your own open heart.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I have been reflecting on our last day together.\u00a0\u00a0 Whatever words I find here to share will be wholly inadequate.\u00a0 I have been looking for God most of my life. I have been praying, screaming at, and begging for God to appear to me.\u00a0 I don’t mean the God image of an old bearded man … <\/p>\n

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