I don’t think many people really get this.\u00a0 yes- I am their leader\/master and they are my dogs-\u00a0 if you want to speak in proper dog behavior verbage- after all I do need them to listen, respect, respond, and defer to me- always.\u00a0 we live in a human world where human law dictates, not animal law.
\nBut saying that does not adequately express my bond with them.\u00a0\u00a0 I know what it is to be a\u00a0 Mother. I put their needs before mine. I think about them the first moment upon waking and the last before sleeping.\u00a0\u00a0 Their pain is my pain, tenfold. Their joy is my joy.\u00a0 Their fear is something I want to comfort and help extinguish.\u00a0 I never want them to worry, fear, lose, or be in pain .\u00a0 I will do everything to protect them.<\/p>\n
yet, I cannot protect them from everything- sometimes Life has it’s own way that differs from my needs and wants.\u00a0 I am truly humbled by my inability to control everything.\u00a0\u00a0 I cannot control that dogs live way shorter lives than humans. I cannot control their aging before mine.\u00a0 This given is something I once again wrestle with as 2 of my dogs are elders.\u00a0 Lucille has arthritis\u00a0 and Madeline has had cancer.\u00a0 How much longer will I be graced with their presence in my life?<\/p>\n
So God’s plan for me was to have dogs as my children. I feel very fulfilled within this role.\u00a0 I know what it means to Mother- to love someone so deeply and selflessly that the Self disappears- and all that remains is Unconditional Love.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 But I ache tonight with the realization that the Mother I choose to be- a Mother to dogs, means I will lose all my children before I pass.\u00a0 How do I endure this?\u00a0 I am in the midst of the biggest loss I have ever known- my beloved Benjamin…and 3 more will follow at some future point.\u00a0 Madeline, Lucille and Abbey- my pack of girls who have sustained me through my darkest days.<\/p>\n
I need to live in the NOW. Because Now is when they are here, with me, joyfully loving me and this precious life we have.\u00a0 The future is fear and living in this place brings me nothing but angst.\u00a0 Live here, Live now- they ask this of me- so that I don’t waste a moment of this blessed relationship in fear.\u00a0 Stay in the Present, and Stay in Love’s safety.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I don’t think many people really get this.\u00a0 yes- I am their leader\/master and they are my dogs-\u00a0 if you want to speak in proper dog behavior verbage- after all I do need them to listen, respect, respond, and defer to me- always.\u00a0 we live in a human world where human law dictates, not animal … <\/p>\n