Sunday night-\u00a0 Benjamin was up all night vomiting and shaking.\u00a0 He could not get comfortable- pacing, digging, panting.\u00a0 Needless to say, I was up all night with him too.\u00a0 By 9am, I decided to take him to the hospital.\u00a0 He was there all day- getting blood work , xrays, and fluids.\u00a0 All the tests came back normal.\u00a0 So we have no idea why this happened.\u00a0 I am not sure I like that outcome.<\/p>\n
Poor guy was so exhausted- he has been sleeping since 7pm last night and its now\u00a0 10am.\u00a0 I just want his body to rest and recuperate.\u00a0 He felt soooo bad.<\/p>\n
How did I handle this?\u00a0 I kept myself from going into a deep panic, but I was a crying girl at the vet’s.\u00a0 I just don’t know how not to take on his pain.\u00a0 I actually think I take it on 100 times more than what he is experiencing because I put fear on top of the pain.\u00a0 I create stories that shouldn’t exist like\u00a0 ” He is scared”\u00a0 “He is not going to get better.”\u00a0 “He is helpless.”\u00a0 I am reading a great Zen book that talks about a simple technique that can begin to put space between the scary thoughts and yourself.\u00a0 It tells you to label your thoughts as they are happening.\u00a0 So instead of saying\u00a0 “Benjamin is scared.”\u00a0 I would say\u00a0 “Having a thought that Benjamin\u00a0 is scared.”\u00a0 What this clearly does is show the possibility that the thought may not be true. Just because I am thinking it does not make it true.<\/p>\n
Someone said “the mind is a scary neighborhood to live in.”\u00a0 I am going to start to planting new thoughts and raking old ones away in my neighborhood.\u00a0 I want to make mine more inhabitable so that I can drive through it\u00a0 without so much worry that I will be hijacked by a scary thought.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Sunday night-\u00a0 Benjamin was up all night vomiting and shaking.\u00a0 He could not get comfortable- pacing, digging, panting.\u00a0 Needless to say, I was up all night with him too.\u00a0 By 9am, I decided to take him to the hospital.\u00a0 He was there all day- getting blood work , xrays, and fluids.\u00a0 All the tests came … <\/p>\n